When You Feel Like Quitting: What Peter Teaches in John 6:68
The Night I Almost Quit
I’m going to be honest about something. A few weeks ago — on a night when the kids were asleep and I was sitting at the table staring at my laptop with about eleven tabs open — I almost quit all of this.
Not because it wasn’t working. My YouTube channel is actually growing faster than I expected. The study guides are done. The blog is building. On paper, everything is moving.
I almost quit because I was tired. The kind of tired that doesn’t fix itself with sleep. The kind where you look at the schedule for tomorrow and next week and next month and think: how long can I keep doing this?
Why Burnout Hits Even When Things Are Working
Running a faceless ministry while being a single mom while working while trying to remember to eat dinner and maybe crochet something once in a while — it adds up. And that night, the math wasn’t mathing. I could see all the things I should be doing, all the platforms I should be posting to, all the content I should be creating, and the gap between where I was and where I wanted to be felt unbridgeable.
What Peter Said in John 6:68
I closed the laptop. Picked up my Bible. And it opened to John 6:67-68.
“Jesus said to the twelve, ‘You do not want to go away also, do you?’ Simon Peter answered Him, ‘Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life.’”
Here’s the thing about Peter’s answer. It’s not enthusiastic. It’s not “yes Lord, I’m fired up, let’s go!” It’s the answer of a man who looked at every alternative and found them all empty. Where else would I go? What else would I do? You’re the only one with the words that actually matter.
When Faith Becomes a Decision, Not a Feeling
That’s not a feeling. That’s a decision. And sometimes — on the nights when the feeling isn’t there, when the inspiration is gone, when you’re sitting at a table wondering if anyone will ever read what you write or watch what you make — the decision is all you’ve got.
I didn’t quit. Not because I felt a burst of passion. But because Peter was right. Where else would I go? This isn’t about building a platform. This is about equipping people with God’s Word so they can go teach others. And that doesn’t stop being true just because I’m tired.
If You’re in That Season Right Now
So I opened the laptop back up. And I wrote the next blog post.
If you’re in a season where the decision matters more than the feeling — where you’re staying not because it’s easy but because there’s nowhere else worth going — I see you.
What keeps you going when you want to quit? Not the inspirational answer. The real one. I want to hear it.
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